Letter to Luka.
Little one, you sure changed my world 365 days ago when you made your entrance.
I understand now why it’s called a ‘birth’ day - a time to remember, reflect, celebrate, grieve and honour the experience that brought you in to the world and made me a mum... Our birth together sure wasn’t easy, made so much more difficult by a medical system that doesn’t empower women and babies to birth without intervention. Though we fought tooth and nail to do so, in the end, that was not our story,and that is ok too.
As we have navigated this past year and the millions of moments since meeting, I feel a magnitude of gratitude and joy like I’ve never felt before.
I have also felt a whole lot of oh fuck moments.... you know the ones, the ones where I struggle with being a parent, the days where I have to let go of controlling things and have to keep adapting and changing to your ever changing movements and needs.
These moments are hard. But growth is hard. Growth is also sweet. As sweet as your sticky little hands and face pressed against mine as you nestle into my heart.
There are also the much greater oh fuck moments, the ones where my heart hurts at the dismal affairs of our world and what we are leaving for you. I’m not sure what I can say about these other than promising that I will not stick my head in the sand.... that I will do my part to instigate change and hopefully make it in some small but significant way better for you.
You are such an incredible little human Luka, with your beautiful smile, engaging eyes and deep curiosity with the world. I am humbled that you choose us as your guardians and I love you beyond any quantifiable measure.
So, Happy birth day little one, it’s been been my greatest, deepest, happiest pleasure spending this first year with you. Here is to the next 365💫💫💫 All my love, M 💗 #mindfulmama #birth #birthday #birthdaylove #wemadeit #oneyear #firstbirthday #mindfulparenting #love #motherslove #joy #grateful